Why me?

  Why me? Why haven’t I been able to do the thing I love for the past eight months?  For those of you that don’t  know (or haven’t heard me complain), I got two concussions in three days back in late January.  At first, I thought I would be able to come back and play in a week or so.  Then I continued to get headaches and felt foggy and the time table for me to return kept pushing back and back.  It was not until the late summer where I started to feel normal again and I thought I was 100 percent.  However, a week before school started I started getting the symptoms back and then once classes started I started getting hit with the symptoms heavy.  Ok, after that rant, I am still sitting here wondering why it has taken this long to heal and why is this happening to me?
  It is starting to become a realistic possibility that I might not play basketball again this year, or may be even ever again for that matter.  If you know me at all, you know that I love to play and am very passionate about it.  Despite the injury, I still did as much as I could this summer.  I would shoot for about 2 hours a day, trying to get about 1,000 shots up.  I was sometimes very frustrated doing this because I thought that I might be doing it for nothing.  I even became angry at times thinking to myself, “What can I do to get better?” or “God, why aren’t you healing me faster?”  It wasn’t until recently where I realized the plan God has for us and how he is always in control.  In 2 Corinthians 5:7 it says “For we walk by faith, not by sight.”  We have to put all our faith in God because he knows what is right for us and we have to trust him even though it may not seem right at the time.  It got me thinking, why would I go against the God that created the heaven and universe, the God that sent his son to die on the cross for us, the God that loves us so much that he knows  the exact number of hairs on your head and everything that we think and do.  Do I still get frustrated and upset? Sure.  But I know that God has something in store for me.  Maybe I will have to red shirt and I will have a job opportunity that I would not have if I were to graduate on time.  Maybe some people will come into my life that I would not have met if I did not stay.  Who knows, maybe I will be healed and be able to play this year.  Whatever the case is, I know that God has a plan and I trust Him 100 percent that it is perfect for me.  Then “Why are you still hurt?” or “Why did God even hurt you in the first place?”  God does not do this to intentionally hurt you.  He does this  to show his power and control and that he always knows what’s best for you, even when it may seem wrong.  So whether I am out for another month, year, or the rest of my life, I know that God has a plan for me and it’s the perfect thing for me.  Basketball will only last so long, a relationship with God will last forever.